Sometimes I wonder if it was fate that brought me to Rumpy, or mere chance.
He and I are nothing alike. I’d describe us as polar opposites.
He is beautiful, while I am rather plain.
He is fearless, and looks forward to whatever the next adventure brings. I am a worry wort.
Rumpy is a “glass is half-full” kinda dog, while I see the glass and panic about where I’ll get more water.
This is where some of you will quit reading, and write pat comments about how nice I am, or whatever. Please don’t, because this is not a post where I am fishing for compliments. What you think of me really doesn’t matter, does it? It’s what I think of myself that counts.
So why AM I writing this post? Because it’s time to make resolutions for the new year, and I’ve been thinking about making changes.
And then a radical idea hit me: maybe the biggest change I could make is to quit making changes. Perhaps instead of trying to make things happen, I should just let them happen.
After all, Rumpy coming into my life wasn’t a change I made happen. True, I did stop the car to help him out. But somehow the Universe knew that about me, and used it to its’ advantage. Where did it lead me? To this blog, for one thing. One of the best things I’ve ever done for myself, even though I started it in hopes of helping him.
The concept of “letting things happen” doesn’t play well with me. I’m ambitious. I’m covetous. I want more than what I have now.
But my best-laid plans have mostly been for naught, while the coincidences I’ve accepted into my life have made it far more interesting, at the very least.
I am tired of the endless stream of self-improvements that are supposed to make me a better person. I have spent so much energy trying to make myself thinner, smarter, richer, but none of it seems to have gotten me anywhere. Nope, no comments about how nice I am. You promised.
I have read the books, practiced the lessons, joined churches and clubs. While I’m sure many of you found what you were looking for in one of those places, I found nothing there for me.
So I hereby resolve that, for 2015, I will stop trying to make things happen, and accept whatever the Universe has in store for me. I’m going to try my hand at going along for the ride, and see where I end up.
Now THIS should be interesting!